Pondering

Yep, here I am pondering when I am suppose to be doing my assignment...
Been doing everything else put assignment since yesterday...and now I am just adding to the list of "non assignment" related things I have been doing...I should really get down to it...
At this point in time because I am so not motivated to do my work, I am seriously wondering if I really want to do this, is this my career, is this the right path for me...
If it is, why is it so hard to get stuck into it and start doing some proper work...
I have procrastinating and procrastinating, doing unimportant and possible fruitless activities, such as drawing house plans, looking up house and land prices back in MELBOURNE (God know why I am doing that now, that is just pure weird, but I guess anything beats doing assignment hey!)
I have even read up on the news that have been happening in the last 2 days in 4 different countries...and that is me avoiding assignments again...gosh, i am good at procratinating...
And of course there is Facebook....As I see the colourful lives that everyone is leading, friends that are so much part of my lives just a few months ago is now so far and almost unreachable...
Everytime I look at the other people's colourful world, I can't help feeling that my life is rather black and white...dull and boring...
One of the reason that I choose to come here, is also because I desire that life, that I thought I wasn't getting in Melbourne assumingly because there is so much things holding me back restraining me from leading that life...
Needless to say that I now know that is so far from the truth, in fact I feel my life is not more colourful now but rather its getting duller (if the word exist, fyi i am not an english major at college, so bleh)
Is it appropriate to wish that I am leading someone else's life? I know its not possible but there are countless times that I wish I can swap life with someone else...
Sometimes I do ask myself, why is it that other people have such colourful and exciting life and I am stuck in this boring and dull life that I can't seem to get out of no matter what I do...what do I need to do to get out of this cycle...
Should I put myself out into the unknown? Is this how other people get the exciting life they now have? I dare not ask....
As I am pondering on various things in my life and dreaming about what my life is about, should be or could be, I think it is fair to say that I am lost...