MY FIRST CAR!!!

After MANY MANY weeks of searching for a car, I finally sign on the bottom line today!!!
Blow my budget AGAIN!!! Like everything else that I buy, I never stick to my budget!!!
So how? Borrow lo...but not from bank since the interest rate is so high, instead borrow from family = interest free...LOL...
All that is left now is to find the right insurance deal and pick up the car next Satday!!!
I will have my car for the long weekend...WOOHOO!!! Where should I go???? Hmmm....I'm getting excited with my new purchase!!!

Ageing

I have never thought that I would be contemplating this subject so early since I am still in my early twenties...
But these last few days, I have to say I really felt the effects of ageing...
Normally, it doesn't matter if I walk the whole days or is constantly kept busy, I would still be okay...
However these fews days, I have been trying to do as much as I can during the limited rest time I have left to tied up lose ends and do things that I have been wanting to do for ages, such as baking, exercising etc etc...
Yesterday, I spend the whole afternoon from 2pm onwards until 6pm baking and cooking nonstop, and at the end of it, I was so tired, I just sat down on the dining table with my head on the table...too tired to even lift up my head or to stand anymore...
This is so unusual and so unlike me...I have to say, I have never felt to exhausted after doing only half a day worth of labour...
I still remember the days at Cocolatte when I would labour for the whole day, and still have the energy to drive home after that...
Now, I don't think I have the strength or energy to do that anymore...
I guess I have to admit that I am getting old...and I don't like the feeling of it...DARN!

DAMN AGEING!!!

FINITO!!!

FINITO...its all finish and done...

I handed in my last assessment piece today...and it mark the end of my studying at LCF...although happy that there isn't no more homework or stress relating to studies, I am sad that it is over...being at LCF allows me to be surrounded by creative energy and I will certainly miss that...
Everday that I go to class, I would walk pass a hall, where artistic creation of artist and designers are showcased...it is truly wonderful to be able to express one's feeling and emotion through art...

I have to say that I do not regret doing this course, I have learned a tremendous amount...to be in London and be around such creative energy is truly an experience...reflecting on this experience I can say I have grown and matured. I now have a clearer idea of what I want in life and perhaps will start to build my life in Melbourne when I get back there.

I did not think that I would say this, but I think I will miss London...if its not for the loneliness here, perhaps I would have stayed...but that doesn't matter now...

I shall look forward to the next phase of my life as I embark on a new journey...

So long LCF, CIAO!!! I shall miss you~~~

Shelving MY plans for now, for HIS plans are greater than mine...

Just when I thought everything was sorted, that I will be on the plane heading out of London on 28th of February...things changed...
I guess I don't know any better so what gives me the right to make the decision right...
Eventhough I have decided and my heart is rejoicing at the prospect of going home, I have to submit and obey...
His plans are always better and greater than mine...
And as always it is in His time that things happen, not my time...although it is within my own self imposed dateline, but I have to admit I did not follow that deadline as I gladly pushed the deadline forward and made the decision to go home before the deadline is due...
So I guess that phone call was God's way of telling me, "No" and that I shall not be at the centre of everything but He shall...

His will is the best way to go forward, so I shall see where it leads me and trusting that He has my best interest at heart...

Countdown....

Mom and dad rang today asking me if I have booked me ticket home...haha...I haven't...
Will do all these finalisation and packing stuff after I hand in all my assessment...

Everything is finally coming to an end in London, there is no turning back as word is now spreading of my homecoming...although excited but I am also anxious that I have yet to see all of London yet...shall do my sightseeing after the 12th...

Can't wait to finish all the assessments...I wonder if I will ever go back to uni after this, I want to say I won't but I shall bite my tougue for now, as that was the same thing I said in December 2006...but here I am again...I guess dissatisfaction with current life situation can caused people to go back on their words, or rather stress can cause people to utter things that perhaps they do not meant...

I shall not bore my lovely readers anymore...all I have to say is in less than a month I shall say sayonara to London...

Should I or shouldn't I

I am in such a dilemma...I think that this month should be the last one that I shall be in London...really want to go home...anyway that is no the point...
Well let's say there is something that I have never experience and I might have a chance to should I choose to pursue it, well experience it for a short time anyway...but hey it beats no experience right...Should I go for it???
It like something so near yet so far...
Like a luxury bag, I have the money to buy it, but I am unwilling to part with the money, because not having a job means no money, hence having additional savings in my bank account actually gives me a sense of security...not to mention I hate not having money = no plan B
But the thing is, even comptemplating to pursue it is so out of character for me, if I may say so myself, and it go against my belief and standards which I am brought up with...
And I am being encouraged by some people to go for it, and have some fun...well according to them what have I go to lose...
I have been thinking about this the whole day today, finally settling on the thought that I have been living a rather boring life that lacks excitement...
As wrong as it seems in some level, it sends my adrenaline rushing as it seems so exciting, a new adventure, make my life more colourful...
I am in such a dilemma, and the clock is ticking...tick tock tick tock...

Note: It is snowing as I am writing this...it's so pretty...

CNY in London

In my whole life, I have never spend a CNY away from family until NOW!!!
And guess what, it is self inflicted...me being a smart ass decided to come to London a place that I have never step foot in, until I foolishly bought a one way plane ticket here...note to self: never buy a one way ticket to a way you have never been because that would only mean one thing PAIN!!!
Everyone is like asking, oh what are you doing for chinese new year? Oh how are you celebrating chinese new year blah blah....Stop rubbing it in, damn it!!!
I hate being away from my family enough as it is, I don't need a bloody festival to rub it in again...all the festival which marks family coming together, like Christmas and New Year and Chinese New Year, I have now completely and utter experience spending it alone...HATE THAT FEELING!!!! STUPID GIRL, NEVER INFLICT SUCH AGONY ON YOURSELF AGAIN!!! DON'T BE SO STUPID AND SILLY!!!

So here am I complaining on my blog on the first day of chinese new year...mind you I tried very hard to control myself the whole day to not whinge but at the end I couldn't take it and had to have a outlet to release my frustration and dissatisfaction!!!

So let's recap shall we, as the day draw to a conclusion what I have been doing today...
Tried to work on my assignment aka report and spreadsheet, but didn't have much luck in it...I was just not motivated to do any work...feeling too damn sorry for myself...wallowing in self-pity...I swear if I stay at this place any longer and things doesn't change for the better soon I am going to plunge into depression...

I really feel like booking my plane ticket to go home...someone help me!!! What should I do, I need guidance and wisdom...
Don't blardy feel like looking for job in this place, but there isn't many jobs around back home...every extra minute that I spend in this place, make me dislike the place more and want to leave sooner...I can't bear the thought of staying here for another 6 months...what kind of life is this man...I bet you no one really know what kind of life I live here...

Decisions, decision, decision...hate it!!!

Almost there....

Just finish the first week of my 2nd term at LCF...there is 4 more week to go before everything will be over...
Well, I have set a deadline for myself, self-imposed of course, as usual...
So by 13th February, if I didn't get any job offer from companies in UK, I shall be heading to the travel agent the next day to book my ticket out of London on the 28th of February...and then I can also book for the Planetshakers Conference (WOOHOO!!!)

Because of this deadline I have been so busy applying for work both here and back home...so busy, really hate applying for work...y cant we just forward resume without answering any stupid behaviourial question or writing a cover letter...it is so time consuming, and sometimes the people dont even read the damn cover letter...oh and not to mention my dream job at CR is advertised on Seek.com earlier this week, I am so going to apply, I just hope that they wait for me to go back, it would be a dream come true if I get the job there...
CR 기다려요!!!

Anyway I can't wait till the 14th of Feb, everything would be so much clearer...and if I am going back I can start planning on holiday, like if I am going to travel in Europe first, then stopover in Seoul before going home, or go Seoul and then home...I was also thinking, while I am in seoul, should I take some korean classes, I really want to learn the language, argh so much things to do in so little time...so much plans to make...

But before the exciting part, I have to work my butt off to get 90% for my final project so I can get my distinction average...because this stupid person which I shall not name downgraded my mark from distinction to a pass...yeah blardy *****.....so I have to work extra hard in the last 4 weeks to get my extremely high mark which is almost impossible, but I hope I can get it, God willing of course...

So overall the next 4 weeks will be very hectic...gonna work my butt off for the final project and trying to get full time work...

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