In my whole life, I have never spend a CNY away from family until NOW!!!
And guess what, it is self inflicted...me being a smart ass decided to come to London a place that I have never step foot in, until I foolishly bought a one way plane ticket here...note to self: never buy a one way ticket to a way you have never been because that would only mean one thing PAIN!!!
Everyone is like asking, oh what are you doing for chinese new year? Oh how are you celebrating chinese new year blah blah....Stop rubbing it in, damn it!!!
I hate being away from my family enough as it is, I don't need a bloody festival to rub it in again...all the festival which marks family coming together, like Christmas and New Year and Chinese New Year, I have now completely and utter experience spending it alone...HATE THAT FEELING!!!! STUPID GIRL, NEVER INFLICT SUCH AGONY ON YOURSELF AGAIN!!! DON'T BE SO STUPID AND SILLY!!!
So here am I complaining on my blog on the first day of chinese new year...mind you I tried very hard to control myself the whole day to not whinge but at the end I couldn't take it and had to have a outlet to release my frustration and dissatisfaction!!!
So let's recap shall we, as the day draw to a conclusion what I have been doing today...
Tried to work on my assignment aka report and spreadsheet, but didn't have much luck in it...I was just not motivated to do any work...feeling too damn sorry for myself...wallowing in self-pity...I swear if I stay at this place any longer and things doesn't change for the better soon I am going to plunge into depression...
I really feel like booking my plane ticket to go home...someone help me!!! What should I do, I need guidance and wisdom...
Don't blardy feel like looking for job in this place, but there isn't many jobs around back home...every extra minute that I spend in this place, make me dislike the place more and want to leave sooner...I can't bear the thought of staying here for another 6 months...what kind of life is this man...I bet you no one really know what kind of life I live here...
Decisions, decision, decision...hate it!!!
Monday, January 26, 2009
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Almost there....
Just finish the first week of my 2nd term at LCF...there is 4 more week to go before everything will be over...
Well, I have set a deadline for myself, self-imposed of course, as usual...
So by 13th February, if I didn't get any job offer from companies in UK, I shall be heading to the travel agent the next day to book my ticket out of London on the 28th of February...and then I can also book for the Planetshakers Conference (WOOHOO!!!)
Because of this deadline I have been so busy applying for work both here and back home...so busy, really hate applying for work...y cant we just forward resume without answering any stupid behaviourial question or writing a cover letter...it is so time consuming, and sometimes the people dont even read the damn cover letter...oh and not to mention my dream job at CR is advertised on Seek.com earlier this week, I am so going to apply, I just hope that they wait for me to go back, it would be a dream come true if I get the job there...
CR 기다려요!!!
Anyway I can't wait till the 14th of Feb, everything would be so much clearer...and if I am going back I can start planning on holiday, like if I am going to travel in Europe first, then stopover in Seoul before going home, or go Seoul and then home...I was also thinking, while I am in seoul, should I take some korean classes, I really want to learn the language, argh so much things to do in so little time...so much plans to make...
But before the exciting part, I have to work my butt off to get 90% for my final project so I can get my distinction average...because this stupid person which I shall not name downgraded my mark from distinction to a pass...yeah blardy *****.....so I have to work extra hard in the last 4 weeks to get my extremely high mark which is almost impossible, but I hope I can get it, God willing of course...
So overall the next 4 weeks will be very hectic...gonna work my butt off for the final project and trying to get full time work...
한 국좋 아 해 요
Well, I have set a deadline for myself, self-imposed of course, as usual...
So by 13th February, if I didn't get any job offer from companies in UK, I shall be heading to the travel agent the next day to book my ticket out of London on the 28th of February...and then I can also book for the Planetshakers Conference (WOOHOO!!!)
Because of this deadline I have been so busy applying for work both here and back home...so busy, really hate applying for work...y cant we just forward resume without answering any stupid behaviourial question or writing a cover letter...it is so time consuming, and sometimes the people dont even read the damn cover letter...oh and not to mention my dream job at CR is advertised on Seek.com earlier this week, I am so going to apply, I just hope that they wait for me to go back, it would be a dream come true if I get the job there...
CR 기다려요!!!
Anyway I can't wait till the 14th of Feb, everything would be so much clearer...and if I am going back I can start planning on holiday, like if I am going to travel in Europe first, then stopover in Seoul before going home, or go Seoul and then home...I was also thinking, while I am in seoul, should I take some korean classes, I really want to learn the language, argh so much things to do in so little time...so much plans to make...
But before the exciting part, I have to work my butt off to get 90% for my final project so I can get my distinction average...because this stupid person which I shall not name downgraded my mark from distinction to a pass...yeah blardy *****.....so I have to work extra hard in the last 4 weeks to get my extremely high mark which is almost impossible, but I hope I can get it, God willing of course...
So overall the next 4 weeks will be very hectic...gonna work my butt off for the final project and trying to get full time work...
한 국좋 아 해 요
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