Almost the end

2010 is coming to an end and there is so much reflecting to do, for me personally anyway...
2010 has been an eventful year, and if I could sum it up in a few worlds it would definately be "rollarcoaster"
Lots has happen in my life as well as the lives of the people around me that made me start to ponder on what is important in life.
For starters, I've been a Christians for many years now, but yet I don't act like one, rather one would assume that I am an unsaved child. My year after year new years resolution of reading my bible and swearing less never came to pass. Perhaps its my lack of determination, perhaps it is my personality to swear. But I've come to realise that in everything that we do, we make choices, and I probably choose to swear, consciously or unconciously. I have previously blamed my swearing on my environment, people around me do it, it's the nature of the industry etc etc... but I think I've come to a point in time where excuses just doesn't cut it anymore...

Secondly, this year has been one where I have been confronted head on with sickness, death and the fragility of life. It's almost like everywhere I turn, someone I know has a loved one who is facing a life or death scenario. Now, usually this wouldn't affect me just because it doesn't affect me directly. However I have been confronted with this so many times that it has really hit home, especially in the last couple of months, so many things have happen that really make me think about my own life.
Am I making the full use of the time that God has given me, am I wasting my time everyday doing meaningless things?
Now, if you ask me 2 years ago what kind of a person I am, I would like my career is my number 1 priority. And some of my friend would also agree, once upon a time I was very driven to succeed and it is this determination that I believe landed me the job that I now have. Six months ago when someone asked me how I find my work, I would say I love it because I truly enjoy what I am doing and the team that I am in. However if you ask me know, my answer may not be the same. It's not that I don't like my job anymore, I still do but someone I don't think I have the same drive as before. Perhaps it's because not the top priority in my life?
Nowadays I seek to find meaning in my everyday life, am I utilising my time to do things that has been that will impact and help other people. I've started to think this way.
To me, this way of thinking is a turning point in my life, and perhaps a sign of maturity. Previously when I was career driven, I would not let anyone stand in the way of my success, meaning if someone ones to sabotage me, it is game on for me. Now, I feel like a job is just a way to earn money to buy the necessities in life, my job for example, everything that I do is to help the company make more sales and profit. Outside of that, there is really no meaning to it.
I've come to a realisation that time is too precious to be spend on meaningless things.
Although I don't know what I am suppose to be doing, what kind of meaningful task I can do to change the world, so to speak, this has certainly been a turning point in my life...
There is so much to life than material possessions and I need to keep reminding myself of what is truly important in life...

My aim for 2011, live a meaningful life!