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2012 The year which will be...

2012-01-01T01:03:00.001-08:00

It is that time again to make my new years resolution...
It is time to set goals and think about what I would like to achieve this year!
I am determine to make this year count...this year will not be in vain and I will have something to show for it in 364 days time!!!

1. Learn pilates to avoid anymore back injury!!!
2. Utilise my time to do productive things, enjoy my time to the max, live life with no regrets
3. Better work and life balance
4. Improve my health or prevent further deterioration!

Although, it may seem insignificant to some, if I can achieve the above, I would be very happy.
After the most important thing when setting goals are setting achievable goals! :-D

Reflection

2011-12-05T01:43:00.000-08:00

Lately, I've been doing lots of reflecting on my life and what I have done thus far...
I suppose now that this year is coming to an end, it is time to evaluate what I have achieve this year and where I would like my life to be next year...
I have to say I have discovered quite a lot about myself this year, things that I have thought for years to be one of my top priority, while still important to me, I've realised that it is not the be all or end all if I don't achieve it...

On another hand, the events of this year so far have made me realise that the things that I have put on hold for the last few years of my life with the excuse of, "I'll have time for that later", it actually things that is important and matter in life...
I've also come to appreciate simplier things in life, such as health...
Maybe it is a sign of growing up? Whatever it is, it is definately an interesting turn of things for me...

I for one am excited to see what 2012 will hold, bring on 2012 year of completion!

To be headhunted...

2011-10-17T01:31:00.000-07:00

What does it mean to be headhunted?
Does it mean one has made it in life?

Well, not necessary, one thing that you can be certain of if you get headhunted is; your career is heading in the right direction.

It doesn't mean that you will be guaranteed at least a 6 figure pay check.

However what it does mean is that:
- you are good at what you do
- your line of work is in demand.
- you are doing something right at work

One take out from my experience is, try not to get ahead of yourself if you do get a call like this. Don't mislead the recruitment agent, they can help you to get to where you want to be, but at the same time always remember that the world isn't that big after all. People talk and people know people.
Watch who you are talking to and don't offend people where possible. Don't burn bridges and keep doors open because this will give one the best chance of success in life.

This is probably applicable in all aspect of life.

Almost the end

2010-12-27T15:32:00.000-08:00

2010 is coming to an end and there is so much reflecting to do, for me personally anyway...
2010 has been an eventful year, and if I could sum it up in a few worlds it would definately be "rollarcoaster"
Lots has happen in my life as well as the lives of the people around me that made me start to ponder on what is important in life.
For starters, I've been a Christians for many years now, but yet I don't act like one, rather one would assume that I am an unsaved child. My year after year new years resolution of reading my bible and swearing less never came to pass. Perhaps its my lack of determination, perhaps it is my personality to swear. But I've come to realise that in everything that we do, we make choices, and I probably choose to swear, consciously or unconciously. I have previously blamed my swearing on my environment, people around me do it, it's the nature of the industry etc etc... but I think I've come to a point in time where excuses just doesn't cut it anymore...

Secondly, this year has been one where I have been confronted head on with sickness, death and the fragility of life. It's almost like everywhere I turn, someone I know has a loved one who is facing a life or death scenario. Now, usually this wouldn't affect me just because it doesn't affect me directly. However I have been confronted with this so many times that it has really hit home, especially in the last couple of months, so many things have happen that really make me think about my own life.
Am I making the full use of the time that God has given me, am I wasting my time everyday doing meaningless things?
Now, if you ask me 2 years ago what kind of a person I am, I would like my career is my number 1 priority. And some of my friend would also agree, once upon a time I was very driven to succeed and it is this determination that I believe landed me the job that I now have. Six months ago when someone asked me how I find my work, I would say I love it because I truly enjoy what I am doing and the team that I am in. However if you ask me know, my answer may not be the same. It's not that I don't like my job anymore, I still do but someone I don't think I have the same drive as before. Perhaps it's because not the top priority in my life?
Nowadays I seek to find meaning in my everyday life, am I utilising my time to do things that has been that will impact and help other people. I've started to think this way.
To me, this way of thinking is a turning point in my life, and perhaps a sign of maturity. Previously when I was career driven, I would not let anyone stand in the way of my success, meaning if someone ones to sabotage me, it is game on for me. Now, I feel like a job is just a way to earn money to buy the necessities in life, my job for example, everything that I do is to help the company make more sales and profit. Outside of that, there is really no meaning to it.
I've come to a realisation that time is too precious to be spend on meaningless things.
Although I don't know what I am suppose to be doing, what kind of meaningful task I can do to change the world, so to speak, this has certainly been a turning point in my life...
There is so much to life than material possessions and I need to keep reminding myself of what is truly important in life...

My aim for 2011, live a meaningful life!

Fashion Week

2010-03-15T01:20:00.000-07:00

What is fashion week?
Why do we have fashion week?

As I glance through article and picture from the Melbourne Fashion Festival, it dawn upon me that the "Melbourne Fashion Week" seems like a joke in comparison to NY FW, London FW, Paris FW, Milan FW and many others...

Do we understand what is fashion week and its significance? Fashion week is for fashion industry elite to come out and showcase what they think is the trend for the next season, communicate/ convince or even better set a new fashion direction. And it is because of this that it is an extremely risky business to organise to runaway show, the investment that you have to put into it to ensure that you are able to communicate your idea for the season is no doubt significant furthermore one too many misses will equals the demise of the label. As the brand credibility in dictating trend would be zilch.

Fashion Week is there to set the scene for next season not the current season we are in, but NEXT SEASON. It is for designers to tempt us with their exquisite collection and make us wait 6 months before being able to buy it.
It is a trade event for buyers to buy the season's next collection and decide on their range for the next season.

Now, in Melbourne Fashion Festival, it seems the event is full of runaway show organised by brand that are showcasing what is in store at the moment. When I came to this sad realisation, I really doubt if working in this kind of environment is any good for my development, sigh…

Lee McQueen's last collection

2010-03-11T02:45:00.000-08:00

After waiting and waiting, the moment that we've all been waiting for is here...
After the official show was cancelled from Paris Fashion Week, it was officially revealed in a small intimate gathering of buyers to remember what a great designer Lee McQueen was. He was truly a legend and one that is irreplaceable...
The collection in a way is a huge contrast to the last collection, however in many ways it also resembles the SS10 collection. This collection is full of Lee McQueen's fingerprint, from the broken skull, to the heavy draping, the plentiful embroidery on the garments to the digital print on the fabrics. The pieces seem simple, it is ever so visible that every single element of the garment has been given much thought, nothing is left unconsidered....
This collection encompasses all that Alexander McQueen is, sophisticated tailoring, romanticism, challenging boundaries....

When I was browsing the official pictures released by Alexander McQueen, can't help feeling sad that this is the last collection by Lee McQueen...we will never be able to see another collection by this fashion genius...
When will we be graced with the collection of another designer who is able to produce collection to such a high standard? Only time will tell...
Until then, we can only wait and mourn in the death of a great talent...

Lee McQueen, a great designer, fashion genius and coutourier...

MY FIRST CAR!!!

2009-05-30T04:38:00.000-07:00

After MANY MANY weeks of searching for a car, I finally sign on the bottom line today!!!
Blow my budget AGAIN!!! Like everything else that I buy, I never stick to my budget!!!
So how? Borrow lo...but not from bank since the interest rate is so high, instead borrow from family = interest free...LOL...
All that is left now is to find the right insurance deal and pick up the car next Satday!!!
I will have my car for the long weekend...WOOHOO!!! Where should I go???? Hmmm....I'm getting excited with my new purchase!!!

I'm back

2009-05-01T04:11:00.000-07:00

Its been ages since I blogged...been so busy and tired from waking up at 5.30am for work...
So what is making be blog again...
Well...lately I've been really annoyed with everything and hence need an outlet to let it all out...so here I am blabbling to myself...
Don't get me wrong, I love my work...but outside of that, I find that I find every little thing frustrating and annoying, making me turn into somewhat of a time bomb...

What annoys me the most?
1. Having to wake up early due to no car.
2. Can't even enjoy my weekend due to no car, AGAIN!!!
3. People trying to tell me what to do!!! For crying out loud, if I didn't listen to you when you said that 10 years ago, what makes you think I will start listening now!!! F#$%ING give up already, will YOU!!!
4. Losing my freedom and independent so make decision and do things according to my own will, and knowing that I will not be critized for it
5. Can't be myself!!! F#$%!!!

FAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRR OOOOOOOOUUUUUUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!

AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can't be stuff to write anymore, too annoyed with everything...

Sayonara...

Ageing

2009-03-28T02:47:00.000-07:00

I have never thought that I would be contemplating this subject so early since I am still in my early twenties...
But these last few days, I have to say I really felt the effects of ageing...
Normally, it doesn't matter if I walk the whole days or is constantly kept busy, I would still be okay...
However these fews days, I have been trying to do as much as I can during the limited rest time I have left to tied up lose ends and do things that I have been wanting to do for ages, such as baking, exercising etc etc...
Yesterday, I spend the whole afternoon from 2pm onwards until 6pm baking and cooking nonstop, and at the end of it, I was so tired, I just sat down on the dining table with my head on the table...too tired to even lift up my head or to stand anymore...
This is so unusual and so unlike me...I have to say, I have never felt to exhausted after doing only half a day worth of labour...
I still remember the days at Cocolatte when I would labour for the whole day, and still have the energy to drive home after that...
Now, I don't think I have the strength or energy to do that anymore...
I guess I have to admit that I am getting old...and I don't like the feeling of it...DARN!

DAMN AGEING!!!

Settling back in Melbourne

2009-03-15T18:58:00.000-07:00

It's been almost 2 weeks since I am back in Melbourne...what are my feelings about being back???

Well, of course I am glad to be home, but as with everything else in life there is downsides to it...and hey i am trying to adjust and compromise too...

I think there are a lot of people out there who can understand where I am coming from when I say, I hate people controlling me, meaning, telling me when and what to do, including when and what to eat...families should learnt to let go, especially when we are all grown up...
For my case, I have lived by myself for 6 months half way across the world, so one would think that I don't need people to tell me what to do, since I managed to come home in one piece...WRONG! Some peple will never treat you like you are grown up, except when it is to their benefit! And because of this, I am desperately missing my freedom and independance...

Second, I have to say, I am having a huge withdrawal from the creative buzz that I have been surrounded by for the past 6 months...man this place is unexciting and boring...sorry to say but I think while I was in London, somehow I forgotten how boring and dull this place could be...Maybe it is because I am unemployed, hence I don't have anything to occupy my time so the boring effect is amplified...

What else have been happening in my life since I got back...everything seems pretty one coloured and flat...

Oh wait...a few days ago, I went on a detox because I realised that my body and organs have been suffering while I was in London due to the nutritient deprived food that I feed myself with, can food, frozen food, you get the idea...
Anyhow, I told myself that I will go on a detox when I get back because there is so much fresh fruits and vegs in Australia. So I started the detox consisting on only fruit juice in the morning and afternoon, and only one normal meal at dinner time...although there is also the occasion fresh fruit snacking...
I am pleases to say that the result was shocking....in a positive way of course...I am now on my 4th day, and have so far lost almost 2kg WITHOUT EXERCISING...NOW THAT IS WHAT I CALL THE ULTIMATE DIET!!! As you can conclude from my last sentence, exercising and sport is not something that I like to do...
Well, I am going to continue with this diet for as long as I can until I reach my weight goal...another 5kg to go...
I might experiment with doing a bit of exercise as well, if I can be bothered that is...you see it is rather difficult to motivate me to exercise, it is just not my thing, i rather starve myself than exercise to lose weight...

Well that's about it for this post, and what a nice way to end a post with a happy note... :D

Sad --> Frustrated --> Scrambling ---> Unbelivable

2009-02-27T06:52:00.000-08:00

Well the last few days have been rather eventful...had a few goodbye lunches, dinners and coffees... very sad and it kept reminding me that my stay in London have come to an end... throughout this stay, I meet lots of lovely people that I will miss terribly...but hopefully we will be able to meet up again sometime soon...

Then this blardy Opodo that I book my air ticket with on the 14 February, didn't take the money out from my back account until 10 days later...so I spend the 10 days panicking and unsure if my air ticket is confirmed or not...all they could say was they had system failure around the time I book my ticket and there wasn't anything they could do to speed up the process and all I can do is wait...WTH!!!

So then I couldn't close my bank account until they put the damn transaction through...okay so after 10 days, on the 24th feb, they finally charged my account. Great, now I can go and close my bank account, so off I went on the 25th Feb to the bank. But now, I can't close it coz stupid T-Mobile hasn't charge the account yet! For crying out loud, why do these IDIOTS work so blardy slow...it is all AUTOMATIC damn it!!! It shouldn't be so F#$%ing difficult!!!
So I couldn't close my account yet again...until yesterday 26th Feb, when all transaction was finalised and I could finally close the freaking account, now I have been going to be bank every freaking day this week until today...and its just to close the damn account...and I for one thinks it is ridiculous that something so simple takes so freaking long!!!

Then came the packing...first I thought, I don't have that much stuff, I'll be alright. And if I send to send anything by freight, it'll only be one book box...man did I underestimate it... so at the very last minute, I was scrambling to organise a shipping company to send me box and then pick up my stuff the next day (i.e. today)...can u believe how last minute I am, I am leaving London tomorrow...

And yesterday night I was panicking because eventhough when I placed a booking on Thursday morning, I told them I want the box picked up on Friday, they didn't give me the time. So yesterday 11pm I started to panic...and to add to that, while I was filling in the documents, I realise that they need photocopy of my passport...great, at 11pm where am I going to find a photocopier...So off I went in my PJs to the reception and ask them do you have a photocopier...they do, but it is not working, of course its not damn it!!! The guy told me to come back tomorrow morning at 8am or 9am because it will be working then...I'm like okay fine, there is nothing that I can do now anyway...

So then I spend the night worrying hoping that someone will come and pick up the boxes tomorrow but I thought to myself, I'd better wake up early at 8am to ring them to make sure they are coming...so here I go texting my sister to make sure she wakes me up (me and my sis have this thing there we text each other to get the other to ring us and give us a wake up call). Right so I asked her to ring me at 8am and after that I went to bed and hoping and praying that everything goes smoothly, as there was nothing I could do...at the same time I thought to myself, what else can go wrong before I land in Melbourne, darn it!!! I am getting too panicky as nothing have been going smoothly from my plane ticket, hotel reservations, bank account closure etc etc....

Then, I went to bed trying to get an early night, but as usual for some reason I couldn't fall asleep...I don't know whether it is the anxiety or what but these few night I haven't been able to sleep well or get to sleep without spending hours lying in bed trying to sleep...But yesterday night, as I was going through my usual routine rolling left and right to try to get to bed, I heard some weird noises...I'm like damn these wall, they are not thick enough...This flat that I am staying in although it is a new student housing building there is so much problems, probably because they decided to use the cheapest material to build this building...Well anyway, it doesn't have good sound proofing because I can hear people playing guitar, talking etc etc...
Well yesterday night, the noise I heard was unlike anything else...it sound like someone's voice. So I was like where the hell is this noise coming from and trying to identify what sound it is...and after 1 minute, I realise it was a sound of someone moaning...some girl is having sex in room next to me!!! I'm like WTF you have to be F#$%ING KIDDING ME RIGHT!!! I'm like go and do it somewhere else other than in the student housing...and you must know that the walls are thin as paper...this is unbelievable and just add another dimension to my experience in London...

And this morning my sis who was suppose to wake me up, didn't...so when I woke up at 10am, I was panicking but thankfully when I check my phone, there is a text from the shipping company telling me the time they will come and pick up the things. I got the photocopy done at reception at 20p each but who cares, I need it done. Thank God everything work out fine...and my package have been picked up and hopefully things will go smoothly now...

I don't think I can handle anymore surprises...I hope all goes smoothly from now on...

PLEASE LET IT GO SMOOTHLY...I DONT THINK I CAN HANDLE ANOTHER PANIC ATTACK!!!

And that pretty much sum up my week since I last blogged...

The next time I blog, I should be home in Melbourne. Can't wait to get to Seoul, leaving London tomorrow, and arriving in Seoul on 1st March and then leaving Seoul on 4th March to go home and will reach on the 5th March... Will start a new chapter of my life then...and need to desperate find a job and I am so poor that it is depressing....

SICK LIKE A DOG

2009-02-19T12:33:00.000-08:00

I have to say, I am not one that get sick easily...
Before this, I could proudly say that I get sick less than 5 times a year, and its usually once or twice in winter, and another time in spring due to the hayfever...and thats about it...I am not one to get sick often eventhough I was a very small pre-matured baby when I was born...

However, things took the turn for the worst since I came to London. Having to take care of myself, what I eat and drink means that my health is not look after...I started to have sickness and symptoms of poor health that I have never encountered before in my life...

The most recent event and the event that prompted me to write this note is, my vomitting today...Imagine I went to bed at 1am this morning...woke up at 7.30am, only to find myself throwing up in the toilet, then I naively thought that it would all be over...but no, nature has it funny way of making people suffer...3 hours later after I went back to sleep, I woke up again to throw up, this time I am thinking surely after the second round of throwing up it should be over....So again I went back to sleep after brushing my teeth yet again...

3 hours later, here we go again, now I am so weak I could barely walk to the bathroom and was holding on to anything solid that I could get a hold of to keep myself standing...the third time I no longer have the strength to stand and vomit, or worry about how dirty the vomit it...I am just too sick and weak to worry about it...I am getting really sick and frustrated at this and in my head I am cursing myself for being in London and hate myself for it, as if I were to be at home at the moment, I know that my mom would be taking care of me....and I would not be as afraid as I am now because even if I faint in my room, I am pretty sure that no one would know and that is a scary thought.

So I thought, right I threw up 3 times, so it should be over right, third time lucky...so again I clean myself and drag my weak body to my bed and dozed off to bed...3 hours later I woke up, and guess what, I VOMITTING AGAIN!!!
I am getting really sick and tired of this routine...I thought, I am not going back to bed this time, I going to have a shower and stay awake...but the vomitting really drain all my energy, not to mentioned I havent eaten anything the whole day, and I don't think I want to eat anything for the fear of vomitting again...
Getting myself into shower was a real challenged, I felt so helpless not being able to stand properly as I no longer have the strength to stand...all I felt like doing was curling up in a ball and hope that it will all be over soon...I have never been so helpless...

After showering, I realise that I had a feverish temperature and by muscles and joints aches...I'm thinking probably because of the vomitting...I felt so alone and really want to catch the first flight home to Melbourne...but I have to presevere...another 10 days and I will be out of London and just under 2 weeks I will be home...and I don't think I will leave ever again!!!

Emotional wreck

2009-02-17T07:01:00.000-08:00

I don't know that the hell is happening to me, but all of the sudden I feel depressed, sad and rejected by the world...

I hate being on an emotional rollar coaster...

Before last Friday, I was constantly busy, so I have no time to think about other things other than my assessments...but since then I am so free that I have been thinking about so much crap stuff and that could have contributed to my mood today...

Don't know why, I feel this way...I hate feeling this way...

Argh!!!

God help me!!!

FINITO!!!

2009-02-13T14:36:00.000-08:00

FINITO...its all finish and done...

I handed in my last assessment piece today...and it mark the end of my studying at LCF...although happy that there isn't no more homework or stress relating to studies, I am sad that it is over...being at LCF allows me to be surrounded by creative energy and I will certainly miss that...
Everday that I go to class, I would walk pass a hall, where artistic creation of artist and designers are showcased...it is truly wonderful to be able to express one's feeling and emotion through art...

I have to say that I do not regret doing this course, I have learned a tremendous amount...to be in London and be around such creative energy is truly an experience...reflecting on this experience I can say I have grown and matured. I now have a clearer idea of what I want in life and perhaps will start to build my life in Melbourne when I get back there.

I did not think that I would say this, but I think I will miss London...if its not for the loneliness here, perhaps I would have stayed...but that doesn't matter now...

I shall look forward to the next phase of my life as I embark on a new journey...

So long LCF, CIAO!!! I shall miss you~~~

Shelving MY plans for now, for HIS plans are greater than mine...

2009-02-04T14:00:00.000-08:00

Just when I thought everything was sorted, that I will be on the plane heading out of London on 28th of February...things changed...
I guess I don't know any better so what gives me the right to make the decision right...
Eventhough I have decided and my heart is rejoicing at the prospect of going home, I have to submit and obey...
His plans are always better and greater than mine...
And as always it is in His time that things happen, not my time...although it is within my own self imposed dateline, but I have to admit I did not follow that deadline as I gladly pushed the deadline forward and made the decision to go home before the deadline is due...
So I guess that phone call was God's way of telling me, "No" and that I shall not be at the centre of everything but He shall...

His will is the best way to go forward, so I shall see where it leads me and trusting that He has my best interest at heart...

Countdown....

2009-02-03T15:34:00.000-08:00

Mom and dad rang today asking me if I have booked me ticket home...haha...I haven't...
Will do all these finalisation and packing stuff after I hand in all my assessment...

Everything is finally coming to an end in London, there is no turning back as word is now spreading of my homecoming...although excited but I am also anxious that I have yet to see all of London yet...shall do my sightseeing after the 12th...

Can't wait to finish all the assessments...I wonder if I will ever go back to uni after this, I want to say I won't but I shall bite my tougue for now, as that was the same thing I said in December 2006...but here I am again...I guess dissatisfaction with current life situation can caused people to go back on their words, or rather stress can cause people to utter things that perhaps they do not meant...

I shall not bore my lovely readers anymore...all I have to say is in less than a month I shall say sayonara to London...

Should I or shouldn't I

2009-02-01T12:21:00.000-08:00

I am in such a dilemma...I think that this month should be the last one that I shall be in London...really want to go home...anyway that is no the point...
Well let's say there is something that I have never experience and I might have a chance to should I choose to pursue it, well experience it for a short time anyway...but hey it beats no experience right...Should I go for it???
It like something so near yet so far...
Like a luxury bag, I have the money to buy it, but I am unwilling to part with the money, because not having a job means no money, hence having additional savings in my bank account actually gives me a sense of security...not to mention I hate not having money = no plan B
But the thing is, even comptemplating to pursue it is so out of character for me, if I may say so myself, and it go against my belief and standards which I am brought up with...
And I am being encouraged by some people to go for it, and have some fun...well according to them what have I go to lose...
I have been thinking about this the whole day today, finally settling on the thought that I have been living a rather boring life that lacks excitement...
As wrong as it seems in some level, it sends my adrenaline rushing as it seems so exciting, a new adventure, make my life more colourful...
I am in such a dilemma, and the clock is ticking...tick tock tick tock...

Note: It is snowing as I am writing this...it's so pretty...

CNY in London

2009-01-26T13:40:00.000-08:00

In my whole life, I have never spend a CNY away from family until NOW!!!
And guess what, it is self inflicted...me being a smart ass decided to come to London a place that I have never step foot in, until I foolishly bought a one way plane ticket here...note to self: never buy a one way ticket to a way you have never been because that would only mean one thing PAIN!!!
Everyone is like asking, oh what are you doing for chinese new year? Oh how are you celebrating chinese new year blah blah....Stop rubbing it in, damn it!!!
I hate being away from my family enough as it is, I don't need a bloody festival to rub it in again...all the festival which marks family coming together, like Christmas and New Year and Chinese New Year, I have now completely and utter experience spending it alone...HATE THAT FEELING!!!! STUPID GIRL, NEVER INFLICT SUCH AGONY ON YOURSELF AGAIN!!! DON'T BE SO STUPID AND SILLY!!!

So here am I complaining on my blog on the first day of chinese new year...mind you I tried very hard to control myself the whole day to not whinge but at the end I couldn't take it and had to have a outlet to release my frustration and dissatisfaction!!!

So let's recap shall we, as the day draw to a conclusion what I have been doing today...
Tried to work on my assignment aka report and spreadsheet, but didn't have much luck in it...I was just not motivated to do any work...feeling too damn sorry for myself...wallowing in self-pity...I swear if I stay at this place any longer and things doesn't change for the better soon I am going to plunge into depression...

I really feel like booking my plane ticket to go home...someone help me!!! What should I do, I need guidance and wisdom...
Don't blardy feel like looking for job in this place, but there isn't many jobs around back home...every extra minute that I spend in this place, make me dislike the place more and want to leave sooner...I can't bear the thought of staying here for another 6 months...what kind of life is this man...I bet you no one really know what kind of life I live here...

Decisions, decision, decision...hate it!!!

Almost there....

2009-01-18T14:56:00.000-08:00

Just finish the first week of my 2nd term at LCF...there is 4 more week to go before everything will be over...
Well, I have set a deadline for myself, self-imposed of course, as usual...
So by 13th February, if I didn't get any job offer from companies in UK, I shall be heading to the travel agent the next day to book my ticket out of London on the 28th of February...and then I can also book for the Planetshakers Conference (WOOHOO!!!)

Because of this deadline I have been so busy applying for work both here and back home...so busy, really hate applying for work...y cant we just forward resume without answering any stupid behaviourial question or writing a cover letter...it is so time consuming, and sometimes the people dont even read the damn cover letter...oh and not to mention my dream job at CR is advertised on Seek.com earlier this week, I am so going to apply, I just hope that they wait for me to go back, it would be a dream come true if I get the job there...
CR 기다려요!!!

Anyway I can't wait till the 14th of Feb, everything would be so much clearer...and if I am going back I can start planning on holiday, like if I am going to travel in Europe first, then stopover in Seoul before going home, or go Seoul and then home...I was also thinking, while I am in seoul, should I take some korean classes, I really want to learn the language, argh so much things to do in so little time...so much plans to make...

But before the exciting part, I have to work my butt off to get 90% for my final project so I can get my distinction average...because this stupid person which I shall not name downgraded my mark from distinction to a pass...yeah blardy *****.....so I have to work extra hard in the last 4 weeks to get my extremely high mark which is almost impossible, but I hope I can get it, God willing of course...

So overall the next 4 weeks will be very hectic...gonna work my butt off for the final project and trying to get full time work...

한 국좋 아 해 요

Back in London Again!!!

2008-12-28T13:30:00.000-08:00

Spend Christmas in Farnborough, in the English countryside...I love the countryside, it is so much better than London but I am glad to be back at home...
Windsor is such a beautiful town, no wonder it is a royal town...
As I am back in my little room in London, I am thinking of my future...
2009 is coming and it is time for a change, for the better...
This time away and these few months allow me to think and settle properly into my new surrounding, and thinking with a clearly mind and frame of thought as to what my future holds...
Of course, I do not know what it holds...but I will give it a good shot, I will make the best of it and take hold of any opportunity God gives me...for there is a purpose for me in this world...
I have decided.

2009 WILL BE A YEAR WHERE I WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE, IT WILL NOT BE LIKE ANY OTHER ORDINARY YEAR. IT WILL BE A REMARKABLE YEAR, A YEAR TO REMEMBER!!! AMEN!!!

Thinking about the future AGAIN!!!

2008-12-22T15:22:00.000-08:00

Haven't been blogging for almost a month in case you didn't notice... :p
well i have been busy with uni assignments until the 11th of December, then I was too busy enjoying myself shopping for the whole week last week...and have been sleeping so much and relaxing, drank loadz of alcohol...i know i shouldn't but, bleh...
finally clean my whole room, mind you i went on my knees to scrub the bloody floor...
so yeah i have been doing loads too busy to think about blogging...but now i am back...
i have been thinking a lot about what i am going to do after finishing my course, which is about time i get serious since there is only 5 weeks of college left...
well the last week i have been throwing around some ideas being entreprenuerial as usual...and i can't help loving to make MONEY!!! Yes, I can be materialisitic sometimes, who doesn't like money...
To me making money and how much I make is my own measure of how good I am at what I am doing...so it makes me feel good...haha...
Anyway, I am stuck on a few ideas...
I think I found my niche, however the scope to explore is so limited...and especially so back in Melbourne, so here I am thinking about my next move again...what should I do...
I wish someone could tell me...

Pondering

2008-11-29T12:43:00.000-08:00

Yep, here I am pondering when I am suppose to be doing my assignment...
Been doing everything else put assignment since yesterday...and now I am just adding to the list of "non assignment" related things I have been doing...I should really get down to it...
At this point in time because I am so not motivated to do my work, I am seriously wondering if I really want to do this, is this my career, is this the right path for me...
If it is, why is it so hard to get stuck into it and start doing some proper work...
I have procrastinating and procrastinating, doing unimportant and possible fruitless activities, such as drawing house plans, looking up house and land prices back in MELBOURNE (God know why I am doing that now, that is just pure weird, but I guess anything beats doing assignment hey!)
I have even read up on the news that have been happening in the last 2 days in 4 different countries...and that is me avoiding assignments again...gosh, i am good at procratinating...
And of course there is Facebook....As I see the colourful lives that everyone is leading, friends that are so much part of my lives just a few months ago is now so far and almost unreachable...
Everytime I look at the other people's colourful world, I can't help feeling that my life is rather black and white...dull and boring...
One of the reason that I choose to come here, is also because I desire that life, that I thought I wasn't getting in Melbourne assumingly because there is so much things holding me back restraining me from leading that life...
Needless to say that I now know that is so far from the truth, in fact I feel my life is not more colourful now but rather its getting duller (if the word exist, fyi i am not an english major at college, so bleh)
Is it appropriate to wish that I am leading someone else's life? I know its not possible but there are countless times that I wish I can swap life with someone else...
Sometimes I do ask myself, why is it that other people have such colourful and exciting life and I am stuck in this boring and dull life that I can't seem to get out of no matter what I do...what do I need to do to get out of this cycle...
Should I put myself out into the unknown? Is this how other people get the exciting life they now have? I dare not ask....
As I am pondering on various things in my life and dreaming about what my life is about, should be or could be, I think it is fair to say that I am lost...

had enough, do your share people

2008-11-24T09:17:00.000-08:00

i have to say that these last 2 months in London have taught me many things and open my eyes to the different types of people in this world that we live in...
have i become more tolerant, i dont think so...i think i am tolerant enough as it is...
am i being too soft? someone have told me that...but i am going to speak out...how did i do that? well i stick a note in the living room to ask people to clean up after themselves...haha...
who leaves breadcrumbs all over the benchtop and table for days?
why would you toast a bread to then leave it in the toaster until it is ice cold again? hogging the toaster....
leaving dirty dishes in the sink for more than 1 week, urgh...
dirty cutlery unwash for more than 1 month and still counting...
why would you leave your rubbish on the floor or on another table just because you are too lazy to take the rubbish that is spilling over the bin out? i mean i hv been taking the rubbish out for all you lazy pigs for the last 3 weeks, and frankly i had enough...it doesnt take more than 5 minutes to take the rubbish out, so there is no excuse no matter how busy you are...
i mean geez, i even clean the stove top for you ppl after u cook...
i have no idea how come ppl live...

I WANT TO GO HOME!!!

2008-11-16T08:59:00.000-08:00

I think the title if pretty self explainatory isn't it?
In the last week, a heard a few of my fellow aussie are going home leaving the once highly proclaimed land of London...
In the far away land of Australia (bloody hell I sould like a fairy tale writer with this line, oh well), everyone there aspire to come to London...to work here then travel around Europe...
But since the financial crisis hit London, everyone is packing their bags and leaving...
Y? simply because there is no jobs here for us anymore...
Although I am getting used to life here...and not home sick anymore...
When I keep getting messages that people are going home, I can't help wanting to go home too...back to the sunny land where it is having beautiful summer weather, unlike the depressing weather here in London...

Someone take me home, pretty pretty please....I want to go home to sunny sunny down to earth Melbourne...

Procrastinating again...

2008-11-12T12:41:00.000-08:00

Life have been getting busier...been to distracted by everything, and haven't been spending enough time focusing on what I need to be focusing on...
I have never thought that going back to uni would be so difficult...I mean when I was working, I wanted to much to go back to uni and said that if I did go back, I would do things differently and work hard...and here I am procrastinating again...
It is so difficult to get myself into the study mode...like it took me one WHOLE day to read a chapter in a small book, that probably only had 20 pages...that is bad!!!!!!!!
not to mention the assignment...everytime I look at the assignment brief, my mind is thinking about everything but the assignment...
a good example would be now...blogging instead of working on my assignment...

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH.....need to FOCUS, FOCUS and FOCUS!!!

MYER AXED 25% OF BUYING DEPARTMENT

2008-10-30T14:49:00.000-07:00

can I begin with WTF!!!

I was reading my email when I receive my regular weekly update from Ragtrader, and when i saw the headlines "Myer cuts back on buying staff", I was gobsmacked...as I just spend the day studying about how buyers and merchandiser are essentially the people that help the company generate the sales, and it is even more important in this current economy climate that we honed into the people holding these roles...

i do not understand when organisation are going to stop seeing buyers, merchandisers and marketers as an expense rather than an asset. Often times, company sees buyers, merchandisers and marketers as people who spend the company money, not income generator... that is a wrong perspective to have which is why i am so against this...
i feel like shaking them and screaming at them, telling them "these people are the people that add value to your business"

argh....don't MYER's director understand this, I mean look at Zara for example, their buyers and merchandiser have done such a fantastic job that they can still make loads of money in this economy climate...

this is so frustrating...

however, I do hope that eventhough they are letting these people go, I really hope that they will bring in a new team that can give the company a fresh perspective, because trust me, MYER has a lot of potential but they just never had the correct people to bring it forward...
for example, the stuff that they buy into the departmental store, I seriously think the buyers have lost touch with their customers, they do not know what the customer wants, if you are doing selective buying although you are buying products that need to aline with your brand, you do need to meet your customer's needs as well...MYER fail in this category...
buying team, please go and do your research and find out what are available to purchase in the market, don't be lazy and rely on people coming to you or depending on old accounts, get out there, find out what's new in the fashion world for example, it is always changing, this week is never the same as last week...

Secondly, the merchandising team, I am pretty sure the supply chain can be made leaner and more efficient, and I am pretty sure given that merchandisers control the price architecture and product allocation, you can make the stock move faster instead of forcing customers to see the same product on the shelf for months, also please do not rely so heavily as you are now on discount strategy, that is profitablity suicide...
i.e. from start of season till end of season...if i didnt see anything that I like for SS08/09 collection in October for example, I will not go into MYER until next year because I know if I go in, it will be the same products on display, unless I go in to get a bargain during christmas sales. And all good buyers and merchandisers know that you can't depend on christmas sales, or price promotions to get customers to buy products from you, it doesn't make any commercial sense...

Do an audit and find out where you are going wrong and FIX IT!!! Turn buying and merchandising into your competitive advantage, and kick DJ's butt...

I think I am done with this topic at the moment...in a way I hope no one high up in the MYER chain sees this, as I would like to work for them given the huge to potential that they have, but on the other hand I do hope they see this and realise what a big mistake they make...

TOPSHOP @ OXFORD CIRCUS

2008-10-28T13:44:00.000-07:00

ATTENTION ALL SHOPPERS...

TOPSHOP AT OXFORD CIRCUS DOESN'T HAVE THEIR SECURITY BEEPERS TURNED ON!!!

HOW DID I FIND OUT? WELL THE STUPID GIRL DIDN'T TAKE THE DAMN SECURITY TAG OFF MY SKIRT, AND IT DIDN'T BEEP WHEN I LEFT THE STORE AND CERTAINLY DIDN'T BEEP WHEN I WENT BACK A FEW DAYS LATER TO ASK HER TO REMOVE THE TAG FOR ME.

NOW I KNOW THAT THE TAG WORKS, BECAUSE IT BEEPED WHEN I WENT TO DEBENHAMS, HOUSE OF FRASER AND SOMERFIELD...

SO THERE YOU HAVE IT...

BLOODY ANNOYING THING, IF IT JUST BEEPED WHEN IT IS SUPPOSE TO, I DON'T HAVE TO MAKE THE EXTRA ROUND TO TOPSHOP, AS IF I ENJOY GOING TO THAT JAM PACKED PLACE!!!

AAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

P.S. DID YOU KNOW THAT TOPSHOP HAVE RECORD SALES DESPITE THE CREDIT CRUNCH. AND THEY CAN'T AFFORD TO TURN THE DAMN BEEPERS ON??? I DON'T THINK SO....

SHOUT OUT!!!

2008-10-22T07:55:00.001-07:00

SYLVIA SNAP OUT OF IT!!!
FOCUS ON WHAT YOU CAME HERE TO DO!!!

S-N-A-P O-U-T N-O-W

"A"

2008-10-19T06:35:00.000-07:00

Its been a month and 2 days since I arrived in this foreign land...
I am not sure if it is this new environment, new people or loneliness that made crave for this particular thing...let's call it "A"...wherever I turn everyone seem to possess one, whether it is a temporary instable A or a permanent A that is engraved into their life...
I finally understand why people that go overseas away from their familiar surrounding would desperately seek for A... there is no word that an sufficiently express this emotion that cause someone to crave for this thing...
At the moment, I feel that I desperately need to possess an "A" of my own, so much that I contemplated on compromising who I am, and to some extend my principles....i am pondering, is this worth it? Is my life worth to be measured by my ability to possess A, and the quality of the A that I manage to secure?
It seems that every single day I can't stop myself hallucinating what it would be like if I have an A, would my life be different, would the things that I experience be different? Would my life be more colourful?
Will I enslave myself to A? Just a short few weeks ago, someone told me that this girl is enslave to A, but her desperation to get an A is because of the background. And I remember clearly what I said and how fast I was to cast judgement on her just because she would do anything to get an A, even until sacrificing her future...and now, look at where I am...
I am such a hypocrite...
Is this what life is suppose to be like?
My mind is no longer under my control, I need to force myself and realign myself...
So I decided that although today I don't feel like going to church, I will go...after I decided I will go, the enemy tempted me again, my flatmate invited me to go out with a bunch of them to this festival in the city...I was tempted, you have no idea how much I was tempted...but I said no, I have to go to church if not I will be in ruin, I need to stay close to God, He is my provider and He will look after me....
Lord give me strength to be strong, and I trust that you will give me what I need in Your time.

*Btw, does anyone know what I am talking about, when I am refering to A, I silently hope no one knows...*

BLARDY AUD

2008-10-08T07:35:00.000-07:00

What on earth is happening to the global economy? Turmoil after turmoil, is the US bail out package still not sufficient to stabilise the world economy?
STUPID IRRESPONSIBLE BANKERS!!!
And what in the world is happening to the AUD, stupid RBA cut interest rate by 1%, isn't this a bit too much?
For crying out loud, if you want to cut rate, go ahead, but 25 or 50 basis point at one go, not freaking 100 basis point, you dungu.
Have you not have any sense on how it is going to affect the dollar value? Freaking hell AUD was at record high less than 6 months ago, and not it is at record low.
I seriously feel like smacking some sense into them. And for those people who works as those mortgage bankers that approves loan, YOU IDIOTS!!! Don't simply approve loans to people who can't afford to repay, or give out credit line to the amount that people's can't afford to repay.
WHERE IS YOUR CONSCIENCE, DO YOU GUYS LOVE SEEING PEOPLE GETTING INTO DEBTS AND AT THEIR WITS END, OR ARE YOU GUYS JUST SIMPLE COLD BLOODED COMMISSION CENTRED PEOPLE!!!

London

2008-09-30T09:27:00.001-07:00

Seeing people spit on the street, is that what some people term culture shock?
London in my mind, is a city that held true to its tradition of high statue, it is also rich in culture and history. The high society lifestyle that many British aristocrat held, are what most people's image of British and what they are and should be.
The reality in fact is a far cry from the truth. Gone are the days where one can safely assume that someone of British heritage, hold true to the traditional values where all are well mannered.
The modern day British countrymen/women is just about the same as the person from the country next door or the country at the other side of the globe. Is this what people call globalisation? Is this globalisation to the extreme?

First impression

2008-09-20T00:37:00.000-07:00

Prior to coming here, a lot of people told me, "If you like Melbourne, you will like London", "I'm sure you will like London"
From what I have seen so far, I think Melbourne is better than London, so here is my story...
After touching down at Heathrow on Wednesday evening, I stood in the queue for 90 minutes to clear immigration. My waiting time at the immigration was spent listening to two oversized men complaining about the queue, whilst earlier they had cut the queue to stand in front of me. The whinging and whining of these two men, were unpleasant music to my ears, in the midst of the long wait. I felt like yelling to them, "STOP WHINGING, YOU TWO BIG WHINGER, EVERYONE IS WAITING PATIENTLY IN THE QUEUE AND THEY ARE NOT WHINGING HALF AS MUCH AS YOU GUYS ARE, GET OVER YOURSELF!!!"
Of course, I didn't as I was far too polite to say that, but some of you would beg to defer...
As I leave the airport terminal after all the "drama", I was greeted with a somewhat polluted air, something that I did not expect at all from London. There goes the first impression...
The next day, I went to Oxford Street, and found difficulty in navigating through the city and using the tube (there are too many exits for one tube station).
Overall the city is very crowded, old, and nothing special. I am still seeking to find something in the London that shouts out to me "Hey, you are in London!!!"
I shall continue to hunt for these treasure...
Till then...adios...

Last few days in KL

2008-09-12T01:44:00.000-07:00

Its been more than a month since I last blogged...
I have been in KL for the last few weeks, enjoying my summer before I head to the northern hemisphere for autumn and winter AGAIN!!!
This year will be one that I will be experiencing cold whether throughout the year, freezingggg...
I am getting bored of my unproductive life....I guess I am too used to working for the last year and a half...
KL shopping is good, although I didn't manage to buy much, due to baggage constraints and partly because the things that I really want to buy is too expensive till it is not worth buying, as I only managed to really do my shopping after the megasale ended...due partly to my stomach upset from too much local food...
KLCC is truly a shopping heaven, that is if you have a credit card with unlimited credit limit, if you don't shopping in KLCC only means dissapointment caused by the inflexibility of your wallet/purse to stretch to the limit of the number written on the price tag of a particular desired item. Hence the reason why I didn't even spend half a day at KLCC, a few hours of wondering and window shopping in the centre was getting too depressing for me to handle, subsequently we left KLCC and headed for the more affordable MidValley.

Today have been a memorable day, hence the reason that I want to blog to leave a mark about this particular event. *drum rolls* today I drove for the first time in KL...wahahhahahah....
dont roll your eyes people...for someone who had two accidents driving in melbourne within the first year of getting my drivers licence, this is an achievement in itself OKAY!!!
I drove out to the local shops to get my beloved mee java and coconut water...yummy...my taste buds will never be foreign to these local food.
I have no doubt that I have gained weight afte eating so many mouth watering food during the last few weeks in KL, the list of food is endless.
NASI LEMAK
CENDOL
ICE KACANG
HOKKIEN NOODLES - THE REAL THING
WAT DAN HOR
FISH HEAD NOODLES
PRAWN NOODLES
PORK BALL NOODLES
FOUR HEAVENLY KING - VERY NICE VEGETABLE
CURRY LAKSA
ASAM FISH
MEE JAVA
ROJAK - MALAY AND CHINESE STYLE
APONG
POPIAH
SATAY
AUNT ANNE'S PRETZELS
ESQUIRE KITCHEN'S FLOWER ROLL WITH CHILLI AND CASHEW NUT CHICKEN
SHARK FIN - THANKS TO MY GRANDAUNT
MOONCAKE
PEANUT BLENDED SOUP/ FAH SANG WU
ICE BRENDED ROSE COFFEE

n many more...the trip back to malaysia feels like a food trail...although i am enjoying every bit of it, I am getting worried of the after effect it would have on my belly...aiks...

I shall continue to update YOU - my readers, on my holiday in KL which is drawing to an end, as I head to London on Wednesday morning. Although sad to leave the nice and warm weather, I can't wait to get to London...

Till later...have a good day!!!

LCF here I come

2008-08-02T03:52:00.000-07:00

Finally received the letter of offer from London College of Fashion for my PG Cert in Fashion Buying and Merchandising. I am so happy, relieved and excited.
God is faithful. If He decide to open one door, He shall open the rest, for He never start anything He doesn't plan to finish.
I love you God, you are my ultimately provider...
I shall never rely on my ownself or understanding but rely on You, always and forever...
I shall press on and hold on to the knowledge and fact that You do want to prosper me and You have set out a plan for me to have a not good BUT GREAT life!!!
I am ready to embark on this new adventure...
Sayonara Melbourne, Australia. Hello London!!! (not to worry though, I will be back as Melbourne is my home)

Expressing ones thoughts and feeling (CAUTION : This is not for the faint hearted)

2008-07-15T22:15:00.000-07:00

Do you remember when you wanted to express yourself and you don't know what to say... I do, and that happen to me a lot...
Or even when you feel frustrated or down or just generally not happy but can't put a finger to what is causing it or what is the problem?

I had a revelation today and want to share that, hence the reason I decide to post another entry on my blog...

My revelation is : *drums rolling* (roll your eyes if you want to for some of you, but this is something worth me using the pathetic drums roll line...so bleh :P)

"God had provided us with a way to express ourself, through this language that He taught us through His spirit. "
He wants to communicate with us constantly and I know that, but sometimes I don't know what to say or how to say or if I want to say anything. And sometimes when I feel that I am not in the right place mentally, but don't know what to do coz I don't know what is wrong with me, for some reason I feel like using this special form of communication to communicate with Him. Eventhough I don't know what I said, I still said a lot to Him, I am sure He know what I said and what I need to say. Everytime after this encounter I would feel so much closer to Him and it gives me a peace of mind.

I think that human language (may that be English language or whatever) lack many words in its vocabulary, there isn't sufficient words in the dictionary to explain one's emotion. But through His generosity in giving, I have this special gift that enable me to bypass everything that attempt to block me from having real true conversation with Him.
Through His faithfulness, I could be myself and shift my burdens to Him.

Thank you Lord!!!

Business

2008-04-18T05:42:00.000-07:00

Long time never post anything here...almost a month...
It seems I am always at a crossroad in life...guess that's life...
ATM, I am pretty keen on starting business but not enough capital...buy everyone say no one will say they have enough money...
Okay so this is my sales pitch:
- i have barely work 1+years so it is impossible i would have enough capital saved up to start business
- no.2, this is not a ecommerce business but one with a physical business location, hence commercial rental charges is very high...
- i think i have the business acumen, and know what to sell to my target market
So how's that for pitching a business?
I am passionate about making money...and not afraid to say that for fear of people thinking that I am materialistic...at least I am not a liar rite?
Anyways if there is anyone interested in being my business partner do leave me a comment...if there is even anyone reading my blog and page... Who know I may be speaking to a wall...haha...nevermind, I don't care, I will learn to be more thinked skin...

On track

2008-03-26T03:05:00.000-07:00

I am on track to achieve my goals...
I am closer to not being suffocated and being FREE!!!
"There is freedom in the name of Jesus" SO TRUE!!!

twenty-two

2008-03-13T02:31:00.000-07:00

OMG...just realised that one of my ex-schoolmates got married at a tender age of TWENTY-TWO...
it is freakin unbelievable...i thought that my this other girlfriend would be the first to get married...and i even didn't think that i would know anyone of the same age as me that would get married before 25!!!
WOW...and that is a big WOW...
In this twenty-frist century someone would get married so young...especially it is not an arranged marriage (I don't think so anyway) and it is not a kampung person...
Summore last month I receive news that another uni-mate is getting married in June...
Everyone is getting married young nowadays....
WOW...
All I can say is WOW again and again....
WOW...
WOW...
WOW...

SURPRISE VISIT @ WORK

2008-03-10T01:57:00.000-07:00

Today for a "surprise" visit from director and manager from Sydney...
came to check up on us gua...
Anyway I don't care and in fact I welcome it...coz I have nothing to hide...
And they are very willing to help me do my job so I absolutely welcome it...
Further, we change management again...I think in the last year that I have been with this company, we change management more than 3 times...by change management I meant the person that they tell me to report to...
Ai...as long as they are not happy with our Melbourne operations I don't think they will stop with the change in management every few months, coz everytime BIG bosses come and they feel unhappy with how things are going here they decide the thing that they can do to solve the problem is to change management team...hmmm...like this we are always back to square one every few months...never progress or move further to improve...
It seems that this new team is concern about us in Melbourne and want to help us improve the sales and the shop...so I am looking forward to working with them...and is anxious to see what changes will happen....
Oh I also concluded through all my working experience that generally Men are better to work with then Women...coz women aka female LOVE and I mean LURVE to BITCH and COMPLAIN and BACKSTABB and GOSSIP...
Men aka male are more concern about the getting the job done that all these other things that decrease efficient...like all things there is of course an exception and that is THIS THEORY DOESN'T APPLY TO GAY MEN...

Melbourne L'Oreal Fashion Festival

2008-03-06T00:28:00.000-08:00

Melbourne L'Oreal Fashion Festival started last Sunday...
Really wanted to go to some of their event, but got sick this week and dunno if have time or not....
Anyway I thought since this week is fashion week, I make a list of my fav designer and labels:
- Toni Maticevski - always beautifully designed, elegant and classy
- Akira - each piece is a masterpiece...amazing...would love to own one of its timeless piece...
- Camilla and Marc -love their dresses....luxurious silk dress...woah, i'm in dreamland
- Wayne Cooper - everyone loves Wayne Cooper...absolutely adores his ever luxurious pieces...making each girl feel special when she puts on one of his creations...
- Alex Perry
- Bowie Wong
- Fleur Wood
- Nicola Finetti - love his elegant dresses...i vow to own one of it before i get too old to wear them...
- Lisa Ho - love her fabrics designs...very bold and statement making...
- Wish, Truese, Mink Pink - my fav. affordable fashionable label...always fashionable, yet somewhat elegant and classic...make it a worth investment piece and it won't go out of fashion to badly, and its not that kind of too OUT THERE items....hhehehhe....my latest wish list is a $100+ Wish dress (this classy casual dress, has a v-neckline, front and back, with metallic polyester thread through the fabric) and $100+ Wish cardigan (absolutely timeless sleeveless cardigan in grey although I did see another sleeveless grey cardigan with silver metallic thread through the fabric at another shop with a hood but it is priced at $160...too pricy eventhough i absolutely adore it....argh...maybe i will go to the shop and see if its still there...drool....)

mixed emotions

2008-03-04T01:27:00.000-08:00

check my courier this morning...it ARRIVED!!! less than 3 working days since it was posted...VERY EFFICIENT!!!
now its up to the assessors to determine my eligibility and assess my credentials to see if i am worth a place there...
so nervous, scary, excited...MIXED EMOTIONS....
i promise to not look at any things on UK or plan for anything to do with the course or UK this whole month...i figure, there isn't any point of me trying to plan this and that, afterall it is not in my control...
so, whats the point of spending so much time planning...
i cast away my worries and burden...at least i am trying VERY hard to...

IN THE MAIL

2008-02-27T23:18:00.000-08:00

I finally sent it already, cost me AUD39.50 for the courier, but oh well...hopefully these investments pay off...come to think of it, I think I spent about almost AUD60 for this application.
I have done my part, I sincerely hope all goes well...
I leave this all to Him now, and let Him do the miracle...
If it is meant to be, He will make the way...

P.S. want to complain, I suffer paper lost of $2500 today...argh...maybe should have sold it yesterday, at least yesterday didn't lose that much, only $2000...argh...what a difference one day can make...AGAIN, HE WILL PROVIDE...

SYLV'S NEW BLOGSPOT

2008-02-27T03:22:00.000-08:00

blogging again after a long time...
been craving to do some bloggin for some times now...
my wretch a/c got jammed...couldn't sign in since they integrated it with yahoo...then again it might be the fact that i hardly used it...
last year been so busy towards the end of the year...so many things happened...n then i just couldn't find any spare time to waste it on blogging...
then what do you know...the thing i know we are in year 2008...
life is crazy nowadays...so many things happen...
getting to know the real world more and more each day...
the more i know the more scary it seems and the more i feel like i don't like it as much as i did...
all the anticipation i had since graduation... anticipation of life...of what i pictured my life to be seems somewhat blurry...
i am starting to be a hypocrite in what i used to believe, think and say...
i know understand and have more respect for a lot of people...
and i understand and no longer am so critical of so many people that i was to previously...
life is learning journey and i am proud to say that i am learning every single day...
i thank GOD for being with me this whole time...i couldn't have made it without Him... and i pray for him to continually guide me unto the path that is best suited to me for no one knows me better than He the creator...AMEN to that...
whoah.....