FINITO!!!

FINITO...its all finish and done...

I handed in my last assessment piece today...and it mark the end of my studying at LCF...although happy that there isn't no more homework or stress relating to studies, I am sad that it is over...being at LCF allows me to be surrounded by creative energy and I will certainly miss that...
Everday that I go to class, I would walk pass a hall, where artistic creation of artist and designers are showcased...it is truly wonderful to be able to express one's feeling and emotion through art...

I have to say that I do not regret doing this course, I have learned a tremendous amount...to be in London and be around such creative energy is truly an experience...reflecting on this experience I can say I have grown and matured. I now have a clearer idea of what I want in life and perhaps will start to build my life in Melbourne when I get back there.

I did not think that I would say this, but I think I will miss London...if its not for the loneliness here, perhaps I would have stayed...but that doesn't matter now...

I shall look forward to the next phase of my life as I embark on a new journey...

So long LCF, CIAO!!! I shall miss you~~~

Shelving MY plans for now, for HIS plans are greater than mine...

Just when I thought everything was sorted, that I will be on the plane heading out of London on 28th of February...things changed...
I guess I don't know any better so what gives me the right to make the decision right...
Eventhough I have decided and my heart is rejoicing at the prospect of going home, I have to submit and obey...
His plans are always better and greater than mine...
And as always it is in His time that things happen, not my time...although it is within my own self imposed dateline, but I have to admit I did not follow that deadline as I gladly pushed the deadline forward and made the decision to go home before the deadline is due...
So I guess that phone call was God's way of telling me, "No" and that I shall not be at the centre of everything but He shall...

His will is the best way to go forward, so I shall see where it leads me and trusting that He has my best interest at heart...

Countdown....

Mom and dad rang today asking me if I have booked me ticket home...haha...I haven't...
Will do all these finalisation and packing stuff after I hand in all my assessment...

Everything is finally coming to an end in London, there is no turning back as word is now spreading of my homecoming...although excited but I am also anxious that I have yet to see all of London yet...shall do my sightseeing after the 12th...

Can't wait to finish all the assessments...I wonder if I will ever go back to uni after this, I want to say I won't but I shall bite my tougue for now, as that was the same thing I said in December 2006...but here I am again...I guess dissatisfaction with current life situation can caused people to go back on their words, or rather stress can cause people to utter things that perhaps they do not meant...

I shall not bore my lovely readers anymore...all I have to say is in less than a month I shall say sayonara to London...

Should I or shouldn't I

I am in such a dilemma...I think that this month should be the last one that I shall be in London...really want to go home...anyway that is no the point...
Well let's say there is something that I have never experience and I might have a chance to should I choose to pursue it, well experience it for a short time anyway...but hey it beats no experience right...Should I go for it???
It like something so near yet so far...
Like a luxury bag, I have the money to buy it, but I am unwilling to part with the money, because not having a job means no money, hence having additional savings in my bank account actually gives me a sense of security...not to mention I hate not having money = no plan B
But the thing is, even comptemplating to pursue it is so out of character for me, if I may say so myself, and it go against my belief and standards which I am brought up with...
And I am being encouraged by some people to go for it, and have some fun...well according to them what have I go to lose...
I have been thinking about this the whole day today, finally settling on the thought that I have been living a rather boring life that lacks excitement...
As wrong as it seems in some level, it sends my adrenaline rushing as it seems so exciting, a new adventure, make my life more colourful...
I am in such a dilemma, and the clock is ticking...tick tock tick tock...

Note: It is snowing as I am writing this...it's so pretty...