Pondering

Yep, here I am pondering when I am suppose to be doing my assignment...
Been doing everything else put assignment since yesterday...and now I am just adding to the list of "non assignment" related things I have been doing...I should really get down to it...
At this point in time because I am so not motivated to do my work, I am seriously wondering if I really want to do this, is this my career, is this the right path for me...
If it is, why is it so hard to get stuck into it and start doing some proper work...
I have procrastinating and procrastinating, doing unimportant and possible fruitless activities, such as drawing house plans, looking up house and land prices back in MELBOURNE (God know why I am doing that now, that is just pure weird, but I guess anything beats doing assignment hey!)
I have even read up on the news that have been happening in the last 2 days in 4 different countries...and that is me avoiding assignments again...gosh, i am good at procratinating...
And of course there is Facebook....As I see the colourful lives that everyone is leading, friends that are so much part of my lives just a few months ago is now so far and almost unreachable...
Everytime I look at the other people's colourful world, I can't help feeling that my life is rather black and white...dull and boring...
One of the reason that I choose to come here, is also because I desire that life, that I thought I wasn't getting in Melbourne assumingly because there is so much things holding me back restraining me from leading that life...
Needless to say that I now know that is so far from the truth, in fact I feel my life is not more colourful now but rather its getting duller (if the word exist, fyi i am not an english major at college, so bleh)
Is it appropriate to wish that I am leading someone else's life? I know its not possible but there are countless times that I wish I can swap life with someone else...
Sometimes I do ask myself, why is it that other people have such colourful and exciting life and I am stuck in this boring and dull life that I can't seem to get out of no matter what I do...what do I need to do to get out of this cycle...
Should I put myself out into the unknown? Is this how other people get the exciting life they now have? I dare not ask....
As I am pondering on various things in my life and dreaming about what my life is about, should be or could be, I think it is fair to say that I am lost...

had enough, do your share people

i have to say that these last 2 months in London have taught me many things and open my eyes to the different types of people in this world that we live in...
have i become more tolerant, i dont think so...i think i am tolerant enough as it is...
am i being too soft? someone have told me that...but i am going to speak out...how did i do that? well i stick a note in the living room to ask people to clean up after themselves...haha...
who leaves breadcrumbs all over the benchtop and table for days?
why would you toast a bread to then leave it in the toaster until it is ice cold again? hogging the toaster....
leaving dirty dishes in the sink for more than 1 week, urgh...
dirty cutlery unwash for more than 1 month and still counting...
why would you leave your rubbish on the floor or on another table just because you are too lazy to take the rubbish that is spilling over the bin out? i mean i hv been taking the rubbish out for all you lazy pigs for the last 3 weeks, and frankly i had enough...it doesnt take more than 5 minutes to take the rubbish out, so there is no excuse no matter how busy you are...
i mean geez, i even clean the stove top for you ppl after u cook...
i have no idea how come ppl live...

I WANT TO GO HOME!!!

I think the title if pretty self explainatory isn't it?
In the last week, a heard a few of my fellow aussie are going home leaving the once highly proclaimed land of London...
In the far away land of Australia (bloody hell I sould like a fairy tale writer with this line, oh well), everyone there aspire to come to London...to work here then travel around Europe...
But since the financial crisis hit London, everyone is packing their bags and leaving...
Y? simply because there is no jobs here for us anymore...
Although I am getting used to life here...and not home sick anymore...
When I keep getting messages that people are going home, I can't help wanting to go home too...back to the sunny land where it is having beautiful summer weather, unlike the depressing weather here in London...

Someone take me home, pretty pretty please....I want to go home to sunny sunny down to earth Melbourne...

Procrastinating again...

Life have been getting busier...been to distracted by everything, and haven't been spending enough time focusing on what I need to be focusing on...
I have never thought that going back to uni would be so difficult...I mean when I was working, I wanted to much to go back to uni and said that if I did go back, I would do things differently and work hard...and here I am procrastinating again...
It is so difficult to get myself into the study mode...like it took me one WHOLE day to read a chapter in a small book, that probably only had 20 pages...that is bad!!!!!!!!
not to mention the assignment...everytime I look at the assignment brief, my mind is thinking about everything but the assignment...
a good example would be now...blogging instead of working on my assignment...

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH.....need to FOCUS, FOCUS and FOCUS!!!